One Year Anniversary!

I know your probably thinking “this freaking amazing woman forgot to post again”, but I did not. This time it was intentional for a special reason. One year ago today I started this amazing journey of writing a blog. You got it people, it’s Life As A Moon’s one year Anniversary! Yay! We made it! In honor of this momentous occasion I’m going to tell you a little story.

This blog had been in the planning stages for a couple of years… I’m not exactly sure how many but I know it was a couple. You see I’ve always loved to write, but only for fun, once I have to write for an assignment it’s over I hate it. Anyway I remember one day I was having (I think it was) lunch at a dinner with Frover, and we were talking about different things about what we thought our lives were going to look like at that point. I was telling her that I thought I would’ve been done with school and starting my career, and just knowing who and what I was going to become. In truth I was no where near done with school. I had this hatred towards school. I believed it was pointless for me to be going because there was nothing worth my time and money. There was nothing that I was passionate enough to make me want to stick through it. For me to feel those things had me in a bad place for so many years. I constantly had this negative pattern of thinking, and it wasn’t healthy for me.

At that point I had never told anybody how I felt about the path my life had taken or how I felt lost, and what Frover told me that day is what ultimately made my decision to start this blog. She told me( and I’m paraphrasing because I don’t remember it word for word) to just write, forget about school and forget about everything else that makes you unhappy. She basically told me to do me. I don’t think I ever told her because I was trying not to sob uncontrollably in the middle of this dinner, but I want to say thank you to her. Even though it took me years to get the courage to actually start my own blog (because I was scared that people would judge me) I finally did last year and look at me now… It’s my One Year Anniversary!! I guess it just had to be at the right time in my life for me to just feel like fuck it, I’m going to do what I’ve always loved to do and finally have a place where I can go to be myself, and most importantly not give a flying fuck what other people thought of me. I remember what I told to myself before I posted my first post ( and yes I talk to myself). If people read this and they like me and what I have to say then that’s Awesomeballz in a can filled with Awesomeness, but if they don’t…oh well you can’t please everybody.

Thank you Frover for being my proofreader, my psychologist, my supporter and most importantly my Sluttie for life… Love you!

Love Ya from the Moon and Back,
Emily ( holy bananas this year flew by!)

Girlie Brain vs. Non-Emotion Having Brain!

First I want to say that this story/dilemma/mind fuck is totally about one of my “friends”… Nah mean jelly bean. On with the story…

Once upon a time there was a girl named Awesome (you know my “friend”) and she met a boy named Boy (I know not creative but just go with it) a long long time ago… Let’s just say about 10ish years ago (this is about freshman or sophomore year in high school). Awesome met Boy through a mutual friend, and at that time they only hung out in a group, never one on one. Which was totally fine with Awesome because she just wanted to get out of her house because my parents were super strict( I mean HER parents were super strict).

As the years went by Em… I mean Awe and B became better friends. Awe started to realize that she was developing more than friends feelings for B, and she started freaking out because this couldn’t happen to me I mean her we were becoming besties. By my… Her senior year she accepted the fact that she had actual feelings for Boy, but never said anything about it because she isn’t good with feelings. Some might say she has no feelings, or what I like to call it “a boy mentality”. She doesn’t like to let those girlie feelings out because she feels like she’s the one that has to be the happy non complicated person. Little did she know it’s not always so easy peasy. After her senior year Awesome moved away to a far away land called Connecticut… About two to three hours away (depending on traffic and all that good shit) from her hometown. While she was away she gradually got over her feelings for Boy, but they always tried to keep in contact with each other for the sake of their friendship.

See the best part of their friendship is the fact that we I mean they could be themselves with each other. They have no judgment towards each other and ,well from Awesome’s side, always trying to tell the truth… As long as it doesn’t involve her feelings obviously. They talked about everything under the sun. Even the most random shit you can and sometimes can’t ever possibly think of comes up in conversation. Those were the best conversation they had. They never knew what the other would say and that was the best part of their friendship.

Fast forward about six years, both Awesome and Boy have been friends for about 10 years (or 11 years I can’t really remember) and things are as usual, every couple of weeks sometimes months (depending on our I mean their schedules) they would get together to go see a movie or have dinner and all that jazz. Ever since they started hanging out more Awesome’s friends started to tell her that they think Boy has more than friends feelings for her. Of course Awe being Awe she brushed it aside because she didn’t want to deal and denied it. She never believed what her friends told her because she always felt that her and Boy were just friends and nothing more.

After a couple of years of hearing the same thing from her friends, she started believing her friends a little. Now her girlie side is starting to come out and confuse her. Does he like her like her or does he just like her as a friend and person. This is where the confusion gets confusinger for her.

Sometimes he would text her that tell he L-word her (you know love) either when inebriated or on a holiday. The first time he said it she freaked out because he had told her he was drunk. Of course because She doesnt know how to deal with this she goes to her friends. Oh and do her friends tell her that that mofo loves you man. Which my I mean her come back was always no it’s not like that he loves me as a friend we’ve know each other for a long time… We’re practically best friends. It’s the same way I love you sluts. Which of course their response was shut your filthy whore mouth he loves you.

So now My normal everyday boy thinking mind is in a constant argument with my girlie side. My normal side is like dude don’t get worked up about this, you know it’s not like that and he just loves you like a friend loves another friend. While my girlie side is like bitch listen to your sluttie ass friends, he wouldn’t be telling you he loves you when he’s drunk or on holidays (okay maybe on holidays because you know it’s a holiday that’s where you remember the love/hate you have for your friends and family and all that good shit), but that whole drunk words are sober feelings crap would pop up. Then my normal side would prevail and be like “mofo when your drunk you go around telling everybody you love them and you even hug freaking light poles, trees and strangers… So maybe he’s just a loving drunk person.”

So now here I am confused as fuck because I don’t know who I should believe… Should it be girlie me or the normal non dealing with feelings me. On top of it all I don’t know how I feel about him. Do I like him or do I not. I’m soooo fucking Confucius! The End.

Love Ya from the Moon and Back,
Emily (holy crapola this was a long one.)

P.S. If you didn’t know I’m Awesome… Hehehe

Damn You Daylight Savings!

This freaking losing an hour shit is not my thing. Every year this happens every year I hate it!! I freaking woke up at 5 in the freaking morning… Okay so technically it was 6 but my brain still thinks it’s 5. Any way I have some amazing news! Are you ready for this… I am now an accomplished knitter people! I finally finished my first project and it is FABULOUS!!

I wanted to write about a little dilemma I’m going through. It’s not that serious, but it has me a little Confucius ( I know Confucius is a Chinese teacher/philosopher but I like to use his name don’t judge me!). As o was saying I was going to write about this yesterday, but because I was rather lost in life I didn’t do anything yesterday, but bask in the Awesomness that I am…because you know I finished my hat. So next week I shall regale you with my fubnucker of a confused noggin ( I’m not really sure if anyone would understand what I just wrote, but I do…so yeah). Well that’s all for now.image

Love Ya from the Moon and Back,
Emily ( I hope you enjoyed my fabulous knitting prowess)

I’m Baaaaack!

Guess who’s back, back again, Emily’s back tell your friends, guess who’s back, guess who’s back, guess who’s back, guess who’s back, guys who’s back, guess who’s back, duh na na… Sorry I got a little excited! If you haven’t figured it out by that beautiful rendition of Slim Shadys song, I have returned from my small hiatus! If your wondering why I was gone you shall continue to wonder cause I’m not telling. I joke I joke…I had a very exciting, slightly exciting, okay a somewhat exciting two weeks. Basically I just got really lazy and kept saying I’ll just write on Monday and then Monday turned into two Sunday’s later, what evs don’t judge. This is a judge free zone.

So basically what I’ve been doing these past two weeks was learn how to knit, make funny videos on my snap chat, and just basically be lazy. Yes I know I lead a super exciting life, thank you. Knitting turned out to be a lot of fun. I actually just got out of my second knitting class. We’re learning how to knit a hat… Yay. Soon I’m gonna be so amazeballz at knitting and crocheting I will never have to buy another scarf, pair of gloves, hat and even maybe a blanket ever again. Well that’s where I hope I get to at some point in my life.image

I also signed up for a new dating site named Bumble. This sight is suppose to minimize on the creepers that start a conversation with… Hey wanna see my dick, or send me picture of yourself (first off my pictures on my profile douchebag, and hell no I’m not gonna send you a picture of my boobs). Anyway this app cuts that shit out. How?, you ask. Well the twist is the girl has to be the one to initiate the conversation, but we only have 24hrs to do so or the guys profile gets erased for you to ever match with them again. So there’s a little excitement. Girls can only start the convo if she matches with the guy she swipes right with. Meaning homeboy swiped right too. Get’em GIRL!!!

I decided to try this app out because I’m super lonely, and I need me some loving. Also because I was tired of the guy I was sort of talking to constantly sending me dick pics. Like dude you’ve sent me a picture of your dick in every possible angle and even one with a Christmas hat on. No I don’t want anymore I think I’m good thanks. When did it even become appropriate to send dick pics as a conversation started. Well anyway let’s see how this dating app works out, if not I can always just become a spinster and knit things for my friends kids.

Love Ya from the Moon and Back,
Emily ( just if you were wondering dick pics are not appropriate, unless if asked for one. Then homeboy dick pic it away!)